Spring/Summer 2021 Cover Art: Entrapment by Jillian Atwood TABLE OF CONTENTS Table of Contents Table of Contents Writing Visual Art Editor's Note ​ Button Editor's Note ​ Zoe Lathey & Blair Bowers ​ Connect to "TOC Title" Zoe Lathey & Blair Bowers ​ Read Language, ​ Button Language, ​ Summer Carrier ​ Connect to "TOC Title" Summer Carrier ​ Read Salmon Contortionist Button Salmon Contortionist Sophia Rose Smith Rowan Blankemeyer Connect to "TOC Title" Sophia Rose Smith Rowan Blankemeyer Read My Mother's Spirits Mother and Child Button My Mother's Spirits Mother and Child Tuesday Locklear Emily Nguyen Connect to "TOC Title" Tuesday Locklear Emily Nguyen Read Braids Abyss of Gold Button Braids Abyss of Gold Mackenzie Shaner Joshua Hein Connect to "TOC Title" Mackenzie Shaner Joshua Hein Read Poemgranate Brazen Button Poemgranate Brazen Autumn Hill Hasina Lilley Connect to "TOC Title" Autumn Hill Hasina Lilley Read Truth in Bitterness... Twirler/Biter/Picker Triptych Button Truth in Bitterness... Twirler/Biter/Picker Triptych Josselyn Ortiz Rachel Brown Connect to "TOC Title" Josselyn Ortiz Rachel Brown Read ​ Nomos (The Law) Button ​ Nomos (The Law) ​ Ninah Gibson Connect to "TOC Title" ​ Ninah Gibson Read Animals and Social Trash Clawing at My Dread Button Animals and Social Trash Clawing at My Dread Kevin Kraft Joshua Luke Rogers Connect to "TOC Title" Kevin Kraft Joshua Luke Rogers Read Toxic Lover Boy Button Toxic Lover Boy Emily Khym Isaac Riley Connect to "TOC Title" Emily Khym Isaac Riley Read Microaggressions Inner Truth Button Microaggressions Inner Truth Trinity Jones Trinity Cohen Connect to "TOC Title" Trinity Jones Trinity Cohen Read Depth to my Body Sorrowful Reflection Button Depth to my Body Sorrowful Reflection Mia Parola Hasina Lilley Connect to "TOC Title" Mia Parola Hasina Lilley Read Jesus in a Tie Dye Shirt Word Vomit Button Jesus in a Tie Dye Shirt Word Vomit Skye O'Toole Isabela Mendez Connect to "TOC Title" Skye O'Toole Isabela Mendez Read We Stopped for Daily's Mirage and Menagerie Button We Stopped for Daily's Mirage and Menagerie Blair Bowers Rowan Blankemeyer Connect to "TOC Title" Blair Bowers Rowan Blankemeyer Read Handcrafting a Predictable... The Peace of Pre-Quarantine Button Handcrafting a Predictable... The Peace of Pre-Quarantine Anthony Bernando Kyra Lai Connect to "TOC Title" Anthony Bernando Kyra Lai Read Hilltop Timekeeper Trip to Nowhere Button Hilltop Timekeeper Trip to Nowhere Toko Hata Zhanna Marzan Connect to "TOC Title" Toko Hata Zhanna Marzan Read ​ The Shepherd Button ​ The Shepherd ​ Rachel Brown Connect to "TOC Title" ​ Rachel Brown Read Guardians In Theory Button Guardians In Theory Sarah Ermold Julienne Masopust Connect to "TOC Title" Sarah Ermold Julienne Masopust Read Black Walnut Dead to the World Button Black Walnut Dead to the World Eli Mears Jillian Atwood Connect to "TOC Title" Eli Mears Jillian Atwood Read Pray Imitation Smile Button Pray Imitation Smile Christine Xu Hasina Lilley Connect to "TOC Title" Christine Xu Hasina Lilley Read The Fish False Prophet Button The Fish False Prophet Kaysyn Jones Vera Caldwell Connect to "TOC Title" Kaysyn Jones Vera Caldwell Read Spring/Summer 2021 Staff Zoe Lathey Blair Bowers Hannah Bardhi Sheldon White Blake Molenaar Parker Sheppard La'Mirakle Price Nayra McMahan Sage Whitecotton Arry Pender Editor-in-Chief Junior Editor-in-Chief Poetry Editor Prose Editor Art Director Junior Art Director Managing Editor Junior Managing Editor Social Media Editor Associate Editor ​

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The Burning Light of the Clock Jamari Weaver Time, my old friend turned foe, Once a blank canvas I was free to paint my memories on, Now sand slipping through my fingers, When youth clouded my senses, The sprint towards the glowing light of an illuminated future started a fire, Flames burned me with ambition and passion, Leaving me with the scars of who I was, View clears with age, Lights become flashy advertisements hiding behind a unspoken cruel truth, Then comes the turn around, Bombarded with emotion in an unconscious moment of reflection, The realization the run has been in the wrong direction your whole life, Fire now ash, Memories become priceless, Forgotten thoughts a sudden haven for rapture, What was blurs, The truths I once knew become unclear, You may attempt back to the ignorant paradise of the past , But the burden of your knowledge replaces the once bliss of naivety, My essence withers with the exit of those play filled park days, The tune of my existence, Once a new classical piece of slow progression, Now an aged chaos of wrong notes and stressed keys, Reality drowns me as I attempt to reach the glimmering shine of a future of enjoyment not survival, I can feel the invisible war, The fantasy of youth, The opening of my eyes, The two sides of my soul sparring for what?, A final decision? A black and white feeling? An escape from the suffocation at the hands of society? Maybe to stop the generational repetition, “ Enjoy your youth while you can,” Pressure from the words, I am filled with rage for the ignorance exerted by a simple line, Of the audacity of those who forgot the war, But in the end it’s just time and me, The never-ending battle with my subconscious soldiers of emotion. Is time to be enjoyed? To be feared? To be angered by? To be reminisced? I know not the answer, I would rather bask in time’s incomprehension than fear the inevitable Return to Piece Selection

Synesthesia Anoushka Dugar The little girl couldn’t see. The Sun had shut her eyelids, So she couldn’t look at the stars The Sun was a vain creature. The little girl wanted to see color So she walked across the cobblestone streets Hissed at the fiery star in the sky As breaths dribbled out of her mouth trickling down her chin Why have you closed my eyes? (The Sun was too busy talking to the Moon.) She waited, to silence. The little girl glided across shattered glass of lost voices Paused to look into a small pond There was a fish with one eye who smiled You want to see color I heard, The little girl nodded Orange, hold orange in your hand And let its warmth travel into your veins Until your whole body is filled with this light Hear it. Strum like a guitar Slicing through your breath. The little girl ran across a grassy knoll. Return to Piece Selection

Syrup Ty'ana Pope I could have killed him, that night in the woods. We were alone, no one around for miles, the silence between us filled with the crackling of the bonfire we had spent a near hour trying to figure out how to light safely. No one would have known what I did in those nights. I could have thrown him in the blazing fire, I could have impaled him like a finger brushing against old wood, I could have tied him up and left him under the dock at the lake for the leeches to feed on for all anyone would care. But I could not. I had done it so many times; I had chased people down for blocks on end, I had gutted people alive, and that is not even all of it, cause I had done so much more, and even better I had played my part to get away with it. I had been everyone’s worst nightmare. This should have been no issue for someone like me. But I just could not kill him, no matter how hard I tried, I could not. He was just too… something ? I do not think there is even a word to describe him. His voice played so soft and sweet, almost in a way that sticks with you like sap no matter how much you try to wash it off. His eyes never glowed, only empty, only ever filled with light hope and deep sorrow. His hair always seemed so unkept, but not in a bad way, but in a way that felt like he did not have it in him to maintain his daily appearance. He carried a familiar scent to him, almost like home, not the building, but the feeling of a long-distance family that have not been brought together for years, but are finally coming back with one another, at a funeral, not exchanging a word, the despair in the room saying enough and more than they ever could. Stupidly, I let the night play on, to give him a chance, to let his actions, thoughts, and words give an explanation to his demeanor, and with that the fire no longer popper over us, instead our voices echoed over and throughout our campsite. But soon the fire did not pop at all, and unexpected rain poured from the sky flooding the ground around, just missing us with the incline of where we rested our site. We spoke for hours in the tent, waiting for the rain to stop. Though rather uncomfortable, he made sure there was no space left for an awkward silence to refill the air, and instead he told me stories; ones from his past, ones he had never told another, ones that told me that he trusted me, ones that made me want to sob into the sky until the angels heard my cries to spare him. And I nearly did cry at one point, but he noticed me, stopped, and grabbed my hand; they were rough, yet soft. Nothing about him matched, I was sure of it then. Even his hands contrasted every other thing about him. He began to apologize profusely for saying too much and asked if I had anything to say, anything to change the direction of the conversation. I did not. So, the rain having stopped by then, we moved on. He brought me outside, the smell of petrichor filling the air, easing the atmosphere. And deciding to take advantage of the now clear weather, he started to teach me. He taught me how to fish, how to find poisonous plants and berries, how to avoid them, how to cure any illness with them, how to turn them into a bittersweet honey like syrup. That was my favorite part; mushing the berries and watching their rich nectar ooze out into the little bowls until it was nothing but, the skins of them being taken out to dry out by the fire for a snack later into the night. The syrup we made was put in these almost childlike cups, sippy cups maybe. It tasted like what I imagine Ambrosia from those Greek stories tasting like. By the third sip I felt my body glow down to its core; my veins felt electric, my eyes felt like they had opened a new color spectrum, my muscles could climb my way up to the top Olympus from the underworld with no assistance. But if this were a Greek story, I would be Paris; falling for a forbidden beauty unknown without thinking about the consequences, because syrup is still syrup in a sippy cup, and it is an even deeper cut when it is poisonous. I should have seen it; building trust with a sob story, it was such a typical move, one I had used many times myself, my own game used against me. I should have taken it as my chance to strike, I was stupid not to. But I just had to let the night happen, just I let him play his game. I should have gotten him first, remove this first story and I would still hold my title. I would not be dead right now. Return to Piece Selection

Patient Flowers Khloe Klopfer The snow was dense and heavy on the snowdrop’s delicate stem, making her shiver and wail. When was the time to grow? Would it ever come? Or would she forever live in ugly torture? Would she forever live in darkness? Suddenly, the snowdrop’s wishful prayers had been answered by the beautiful force that holds this world in its fingertips. The snowdrop saw a sliver of light, a raindrop on a painfully humid day. She took it as a sign, her time would come soon, but she must be patient with herself, even if it hurt so horribly that she wished to scream in anger and frustration, she must wait. So she did. She waited, and waited, and waited. Until that one, singular raindrop, became a thundering storm. All the ice drifted away to a happier place, while the beautiful snowdrop stretched her wings as the clouds and the sun kissed her and warmed her until her pale smile brightened the earth much more than the sun ever could. The poppies may look at her in disgust, the roses may shun her beauty, but she was happy. She was proud of herself for holding onto that piece of thread that those cruel poppies and envious roses could never have held onto for so long. She had been patient, she had been kind, and her love would live on longer than the rusted petals of the roses and poppies could imagine in their dark, shadowed roots. Return to Piece Selection

Barbarous Verdure Kalliope Gonos The stars look so gorgeous from the moon, each one shining millions of miles away, bright and pure. After an exhausting journey here, the beauty is most definitely appreciated. Though, this break while we run maintenance checks on the ship gives me time to think, and I realize just how scared I am for the next part of our ambitious journey. I have only an hour before I surrender myself to the will of technology and enter my cryogenic chamber. At least it's better than being stuck on the ship for a year. Mars is so far away, but this venture will be worth it. It has to be. Considering the state that earth is in, the fate of humanity depends on it. I return to the ship and head towards the control panel to check for any final messages before our long-awaited departure for Mars. When I open the message port I see only one unread message, it's a call request from Director Ellroy Hall. I quickly accept the request and step backwards as the director's face appears on screen. “Hello, Dr. Martin.” says Ellroy “Hello, Director,” I reply. “I trust that everything is in order for your departure?” she asks. “It all looks to be Director, we are awaiting the results of our temperature check in the chambers. We are expected to depart in twenty minutes.” “Good,” she replies steadily. “I wish you, and your fellow pioneers good luck on this endeavor, see you in a year.” She then ends the call. The results of the tests on the ship are all ideal. I take a moment to calm myself before climbing inside. “This could be the day that I die,” I think to myself, before entering my pod to sleep for 8760 hours. I jolt awake, startled by the sudden warmth. My cryopod has opened. I rush to the window of the ship, shivering as I walk. When I look outside of the porthole window, I see something that no one has ever seen before: Mars, up close. It seems like I can see every crater, every canyon and mountain and fissure. I feel like I'm on top of the world. We made it. After eating a large meal to regain my strength and sending in a message with word of our arrival to Mars, I meet with the others in my crew. We put on our suits and cautiously step into the pressurization chamber. I am the first to ever set foot on Mars. We start to take tests and samples of everything before loading them back into a separate pod to send back to earth when we stumble upon a large opening in the ground that seems to be some sort of cave. I volunteer to check it out while the others continue to collect samples. As I descend into the cave paying close attention to my surroundings. I begin to see maroon vines growing on the walls and clinging to the ceiling. We have no prior knowledge of any life on Mars so I grab a sample quickly, as if I'm scared that the vines will disappear. Exhilarated and high off the adrenaline, I continue down the tunnel with a skip in my step. The once narrow shaft opens up into a wide cavern filled with blossoming undergrowth. Shades of purple, green, and pink fill the open space. I’m stunned as I try to take it all in. It's truly a miracle. The reason we had no idea that Mars contained life is because it was all under the surface! These plants grow using the light from phosphorus algae, as opposed to the sun. This is a scientific breakthrough that I am thrilled to share with the rest of my team, and eventually, the world. As I try to leave the cave, samples in hand, I hear a low, rumbling sound. I look around in a flurry of panic, not knowing what the sound could be. Then I feel something snake around my ankle before pulling me backwards, hard. Gasping in shock, I claw at the appendage in vain. As I am dragged along the ground, I can feel the shards of glass from sample tubes digging into my back, drawing long lines of crimson down my body. Another limb juts out at me from the dark, grabbing my waist and pulling me into an upright position. It hurts, the limbs feel like they are constricting around me, my vision goes spotted around the edges. I can't breathe. I hear a deep, almost otherworldly voice echoing throughout the chamber. The sound is so rough it hurts to listen to. The voice utters just a few sentences— simple yet menacing. “You have destroyed the Earth. We have observed you, and your crimes. We will not let you do the same to us as you did to our counterpart,” it says this before the appendages begin to tighten. The one formerly around my ankle snakes up to wrap around my throat. I feel myself coughing wet, loud coughs. Blood leaks from my mouth, then dribbles down my chin. All I can feel is blistering pain. It's too late to be saved by the time my last breath rattles in my chest. I savor my last moment, before my eyes gently close. Return to Piece Selection